Sunday, 1 February 2015

On Film: Shanghai

I will refrain from saying too much, but I thought I would share with you a small project I was inspired to create after the unexpected way that a lot of my film photos from China turned out, especially because it re-invigorated the way I remembered the place. The illustration on the cover page is by my talented little brother. 

Wednesday, 21 January 2015

龙虎山 Mount Longhu

My recent travels to China took us to Jiangxi province (the area shown in red on the map), a south-west journey from Shanghai, 3 hours via bullet train. 

Here, is Mount Longhu - literally meaning 'Dragon Tiger Mountain'. It is one of the birthplaces of Taoism/Daoism (romanised version), with many temples built into the cliffside landscape. Although China is known as a mostly Buddhist nation, the 'true' Chinese way of life is based on Taoist philosophy- less a religion and more of a perspective on life. 

The classic yin-yang sign derives from Taoist thought- a duality that represents a balanced life. The different binary definitions are not prescriptive, just like Taoism itself, and are entirely relative. But basic tenets include the dual notions of night (yin) and day (yang), female (yin) and male (yang).

This is the same well which the first-generation Taoist, Zhang Daoling drank from thousands of years ago. I'd never had well water before and it was pleasantly sweet and slightly warm. In ancient times, people had to wash their hands in this holy well water before visiting the temple, since it was disrespectful to show unclean hands to the deities. In the same vein, Taoists pray with their left hand covering their right, since the right hand was usually used in combat and had therefore encountered bloodshed, impolite to show to the heavenly gods.

We went through the old town, situated in the mountains. It was an amazing snapshot of local life and felt so far away from the 21st-century city life I am used to. Although everything seemed novel to me, turning me into the dumbfounded, gaping tourist who couldn't stop taking photos- it must've been strange from the locals' point of view who likely knew no other way of life, and did not see the same jarring juxtaposition of old and new that I did. Most of the dwellings opened straight onto the main road, with everything inside visible- TV sets, plastic chairs and kids toys next to traditional wooden tables, men playing mahjong; each dwelling a striking tableau of mountainside life. 

If you look closely at the last photo, you will see holes in the cliffside. The ancient practice was to place coffins inside these openings, with more important people placed higher up. It is still unknown how these coffins were placed in the holes since the rock face is sheer. These cliffside resting places had to face east to catch the morning light as a sign of good luck and prevent the wooden coffins from rotting. 


The peace and continuity of a simpler way of life in the Chinese mountainscape contrasts immensely to big cities like Shanghai. It is a reminder amidst all the criticism, corruption and problems which we read about China, providing us with a cynical point of view- that there is a rich, inspiring cultural history that lies largely unspoiled, an escape where such reflection comes easily. 

The mountains are well-traversed and suited to domestic tourists, but may not come easily to Western travellers since it is not particularly developed. Although there is an innocent charm in the poor english on signs and sense of authenticity with young local tour guides- and I hope these remain in the future- but with a sustainable focus on developing tourist information to make the experience more accessible for international travellers. 

Tuesday, 23 December 2014

Love is so short, forgetting is so long

I wonder sometimes what it is about documenting life, through images, words, even song, that seems coded into our DNA. Or at least, for some of us this may be true. I think, unhappily, that taking photos has often become a distorted projection, a wrapping of ourselves in a falsehood, casting an untrue light on reality, a constant and exhausting performance of superlative happiness. It is like the primitive nature of asserting dominance, of being powerful over others, is for many in my generation about being seen, in a very curated way- at certain places, at certain times, in certain garments, in certain poses, with certain people…the demands of the perfect life are endless. And it is fed by the furor of celebrity. But it is sad to think like this too much- haven’t I been swept up in it myself too at times?

I write now, because the time of year has brought us to another horizon, an outpost to look back, briefly, from. The sweet and salty taste of summer perfumes my thoughts, lifting forth the new, gentle taste of authenticity- pomegranate jewels tapped out and savoured, crunching in my teeth.

On a quiet Friday in December, A remarked that “most of the friends I’ve talked to seem to have really grown into themselves this year,” to which I replied carelessly, a prompt that’s-all-there-is-to-say tone to my voice because I didn’t want to have the same conversation again, “good.” Sometimes I think talking about ourselves is a waste of time and silly, because it is all projection, bandaging up wounded egos and sometimes self-pitying talk but now, remembering A’s statement…it is the ruby dewdrops of the pomegranate that I am reflected in, that make the fruit really truly, a pomegranate- because, who else can we ever inhabit? Who else do we have more claim over? The selfish truth- and maybe this is the only truth we will always know, is that there is no one on this planet whose pain and joy we experience with greater vividness, whose dusty dreams and secret ambitions we guard more closely, whose sense of ugliness and beauty we are more closely attuned to, than our own. My every memory will die with me; we may find deeper connection with others, synchronise our body patterns with those close to us, but no one else has seen or will see the world as I have seen it; only I occupy this space that I am in, and there is a pocket of emptiness that I claim wherever I go, until I die.

To document life, when every moment is as transient as the last…that is exactly the reason to do so. Pablo Neruda said, “love is so short, forgetting is so long.” If I want to savour the first ripe mango of last year again, I will find words, images, song that unearth the sensation again. The brevity of things is beautiful, and I can imagine that the brevity of a love all-consuming and new, is too, leaving pure undistilled memories at the end, and then we can colour our world and others’ with them in so many ways. Memories, are subconsciously and consciously created, collected…afterwards, we chase the past, catch it in glimmers when we smell the same pungent combination of car leather and women’s fragrance years later, or see our own father’s furrowed forehead in our own child. The most prosaic moments in life are perfumed by something foreign, yet familiar, something not here, yet here somewhere…memory. I realise that I should take control of my own memories, capturing them as I see them- if I am an idealist, then I will live, breathe, see, hear and smell that way as much as I can. I think what I am saying seems like many things but maybe is the one thing after all, that whether or not the grass is green where I stand I will not try to be somewhere or something else just because the grass seems greener there, because up close it is fake, but, here at my little outpost, the summer heat has never unfolded with such headiness nor have the storms been so unapologetic; it is the afterglow of the tempest, ever golden.

(All photos taken on iPhone 5C)

Sunday, 30 November 2014


Summer via playin' around on Polyvore (you wonderful app.)

Friday, 7 November 2014

Girl with a Pearl Earring

In the midst of (not) studying for exams, I stumbled across two marvellous things:
1. A streetstyle photo on Vanessa Jackman's blog that called to mind a 21st-century reincarnation of Vermeer's Girl with a Pearl Earring. 
2. Polyvore. 

My Friday morning headache was sufficiently cured as my finger swiped through echelons of material wonder to create a little collage inspired by the unique, jewel-toned, Baroque, dim-silhouetted, dutch-lapis lazuli-indian yellow richly draped essence of Vermeer's timeless tableau and Jackman's intriguing portraiture.

(listed clockwise)
1. No. 21 Ines Tie-Neck Chiffon Shirt in Berry
2. Bauble Bar Pearl Ishtar Drops
3. Megan Huntz Charlotte Maxi Dress
4. Aurelie Bidermann Cheyne Walk Earrings
5. Contileoni Floral Print Silk Chiffon & Linen Scarf
6. Snow Black Boots handmade 
7. MSGM Printed Duchesse-Satin Mini Dress
8. Bardot Gold Solar Cuff

1. Langani Multi-Strand Pearl Necklace, 1970s
2. T By Alexander Wang Short Dress
3. Noir sachinbabi Women's Margarete High-Low Metallic Ball Skirt in Bronze
4. Valentino Lace Blouse
5. Roksanda Ilincic Marlow Stretch Wool Twill Trousers
6. Free People Manchester Tall Boot
7. Saint Laurent Red Wool Hooded Cape
8. Dr Martens Buckled Loafers
9. Isaac Mizrahi Pearl Pendant Necklace
10. Wouters & Hendrix Gold Crows Claws Pearl Brooch
11. Loewe Pre-owned Brooch (with red)
12. Oscar de la Renta Brooch

Monday, 6 October 2014

Diary of a Day Away


To Bowral in the Southern Highlands we went...where we began in Corbett Gardens to see the tulips. In the sweltering sunshine, we clicked away at the flowers in their fading glory; flaming yellow lips crowded together, exposed under the perfect cruelty of an Australian blue sky. A magnificent boughed tree called for clambering upon, though not the wisest idea in my flimsy sandals, as I soon realised.   

Next, we traipsed over to Milton Gardens, part of the Milton Park Country House and Hotel; driving up through a tall, treelined corridor through gates into woodland gardens of a bygone era. From here on in, the whole day was suffused, with, shall we say, the earlybird filter on instagram (what can I say- I'm a gen Y kid.) Around charming bends, at times I felt like Anne of Green Gables as she wondered at the natural delights of Prince Edward Island- especially entering the gates of Bluebell Woods and into the little glen beyond. Then, when we stumbled onto the scene of a just-then wedding ceremony, I swear I could still hear the minister's voice and quiet rustling of ladies' dresses, drop pearl earrings bobbing in the afternoon breeze. On the outer rim, we found a wall of hedges that we followed, like the maze in Alice in Wonderland...until a stone bench on a hill and a widespread fir above came into view like a tableau just waiting to be stepped into. I immediately thought of the opening credits of Downton Abbey and wouldn't have been surprised if Lord Grantham appeared at that moment, dog by his side and morning paper under his arm. Then, a nonchalant snap of my mum from behind some roses- of which she promptly declared the title to be "Woman sitting in a garden." Like a Monet! See if you can map this little story out yourself in the photos below...

I guess you might say we indulged our imaginations and our senses, in what was equal parts like being an elegant, well-to-do lady sipping a glass of iced tea which had come from the silver tray of a waistcoated butler,  as well as like being a child with stars in her eyes and no shoes on her feet on a summer holiday. And yes, I do have a penchant for long sentences. 

october and breezy

It was the fourth day of october, unseasonably warm, faintly muggy, but smoothed over by a strange summer breeze (hello, spring? have you already left?). So, I thought I would swing in time with miss october and continue my hat game, slip into something slippery, and my well-ventilated, well-worn boyfriend jeans. The result: a boxy silhouette and sensations of lightness and litheness. 

Later on, some uncertainty was voiced: 
Was the whole outfit just too "light", as in lollipop rainbow indie filter? 
Was then duly reminded by Blossom and Buttercup that "your soul is black". 

The afternoon passed in a mellow golden haze, the horizon folding into the harbour and city lights never really coming into focus though they were there. From The Rocks to Circular Quay to Balmain East to Town Hall to Oxford St; From the Chocolate Festival to the Food Festival to a hat shop to the Museum of Contemporary Art to another exhibition to the ferry to Balmain East to the liquor store to Cappello Pizzeria to the perfect grassy vantage point to the bus to Mcdonalds to Oxford Art Factory to The Cliff Dive to Hello Sailor...

No plans, no intentions, just three pairs of feet and three pairs of young hungry eyes and hungrier hearts. I documented less to drink in more of the moment, hence just a little collage...I think words only go so far but it was kind of like this this